I organised lunch with a relative this week and had some strong things I wanted to say. I was so aware and convinced of what I needed to say at the time of organising the lunch, but when the actual lunch came around I felt totally different. As a result I diluted the message and I felt wishy-washing and half-baked.
I want to organise another lunch. I want to say what I need to say, and this time with conviction.
Perhaps I need to write a letter, or perhaps allow myself to feel okay with the discomfort of this difficult conversation.
Surly saying something with conviction, and getting it wrong, is better than delivering half a message right.