Consistency

Right now, having taken on a full-time job, it is a lot of effort to keep the rest of my activities going. Like the podcast. And even thinking about a social life makes me want to sit down.

I remind myself to be consistent. That starting a new job takes energy, but it is not going to be this energy sapping for long. It also requires the creation of new routines which also require some trial and error before they are optimised, but then they become optimised and easy.

So for this period my priority is to do the basics of looking after myself well: sleep, food, movement, meditation. My other priority is to be consistent in producing the podcast, writing this blog, and of course showing up and producing great work at my new job.

Soon I will have time and space and energy for other things. But right now it is about getting through a slightly more difficult period.

On the right track?

There are days when I wonder more than others about whether I am on the right track. I look for sign posts, hints or omens on days like this, because it is impossible to see the destination or to be sure. 

I am enjoying reading Uncertainty by Jonathan Fields at the moment. He talks about leaning into the place where you feel the dis-ease. 

A sign post for me at the moment is the dis-ease I am feeling about starting me own business. Another is the people I am coming across who share a similar ethos for creating and living. 

Therefore I keep walking along this track - from all I can tell it is leading me in the right direction. 

Sharing is caring

I was at a Chinese New Year dinner last night after a tough day of not really knowing how to move forward with my business ideas, or perhaps unwilling to commit to one of those ideas and run with it.

At the dinner was a guy who I had not seen for quite a while. He is such a genuine and friendly person that I found myself being quite open with him about what I was working on, even though we do not know each other that well.

As I began to talk about my business ideas, he became genuinely excited about one of them. His enthusiasm for it reminded me that I am actually working on some interesting things; to embrace those times of doubt and uncertainty as inevitable and necessary parts of the journey.

I took the risk in being vulnerable, sharing my fragile thoughts, and in return I received the care I needed at that moment.