In the end, its only me that knows what I need

Yesterday I crashed. After dropping the kids at school I lay in bed for more than an hour. Somehow I managed to get out of the house and drove to meet a colleague. This gave me a bit of a spurt of energy to get through the rest of the day, before going to bed at 9:00 and sleeping through to 7:00.

I think my body is telling me that it needs to feel some things, and I need to take excellent care of it so it can feel what it needs to feel. Many of these feelings are about processing what happened this time last year.

I think that is going to mean plenty of sleep, dropping the coffee, gentle exercise, and being sensitive to what my body is saying. Part of me feels guilty about this, like I need to be doing, and producing, and getting closer to making money again. However noticing how I feel today, in a much more relaxed and present state of mind, I realise that I must follow my own path. At the moment this does not look like much from the outside. But it is what I need.

Keep showing up...

Consistency seems to me to be one of the keys to success. I am thinking about my meditation practise. I am thinking about eating well. About exercise. About this blog.

Not that this blog is what many would call 'successful' at the moment. I am not sure that anybody else reads it. But as I write it (almost) everyday, I can feel something changing inside me. 

I was thinking about this as I start to hang out with a new group of people. These are the subtle disruptors of Melbourne, those who are starting to do meaningful, purposeful, mindful, disruptive things, often through business. I have managed to tap into a few gatherings that have been happening, and because I have been showing up consistently, people are starting to recognise me as part of that group. I am starting to build some genuine relationships, and who knows, maybe I have found my tribe.

Going hand in hand with consistency is building for the long term. I like the Slow School of Business's approach in this way. About building mindfully. Building well. At the start of a new journey, in health, in business, in relationships, I am keeping consistency and building for the long term front of mind.